Be Mindful and Feel Good Again

So this post came about because of my second job. Yeah, I’m probably going to be talking about having two jobs quite a bit on here now because it is taking up a lot of my time but also it has changed the way I operate lately. In fact, working these two jobs is forcing me to be way more mindful than I’ve ever been. Let me explain.

When I first started my second job, I did expect to be tired both physically and mentally. I knew that it was going to take a lot out of me, at least for the first few weeks. I spoke of my adjustment period in a previous blog post, which you can read here. What I didn’t expect was how mentally drained I would be this far into it. Last week, I was ready to rip my hair out, cry, and just lose my mind altogether. The reason being is that I’m around a lot of personalities and different energies that I wasn’t around before. 

Initially, I didn’t know what to do. I was constantly tired and just felt so bad that I felt like I wasn’t functioning correctly. Then I realized that I was pretty much running on autopilot and the tank was getting pretty low. It wasn’t a long time that I wasn’t feeling like myself, but I know that I missed feeling good. So, I remembered to be mindful, but this time…completely mindful. No more mindless small talk/gossiping with coworkers, no more engaging in things that really aren’t my business, and no more reacting to little things others do or say. 

I know this sounds a little crazy and kind of a little disconnected from reality, but that’s kind of the point. Okay maybe not to disconnect with reality, but disconnect from others. The people you are around and engage with are bound to have an influence or effect on you. That’s what was happening to me and I wasn’t mindful of it at first. This doesn’t mean I go to work now and don’t talk to my coworkers. It just means that I’ll be doing a lot more listening than talking and just being aware of what I say and how I react to certain situations. 

Over the weekend, I did some amazing and much needed Vinyasa yoga and learned to set intentions off the mat. My intention Sunday night was to release any negative energy that I’ve been holding onto. I went into work the next morning with a clear and positive headspace. I pretty much stayed in my own world the majority of the day and I felt so good when I went home and I still do days later. 

That’s really all it took for me to feel good again – being mindful. Like I said I know that I’ve mentioned mindfulness in the past…it doesn’t just apply to things like shopping or eating, but to mental/emotional things that can take a toll on you. I’m closing out here, but I hope you all enjoyed this post. I’ll most likely be talking more about this topic so stay tuned. 

ChelsiKay